Newsflash: Life is hard and that's the hard truth but what I have learned is this: tough times don't come to last. The sun always shines the next day, unless you're in Texas, mid-January and the weather is 45 degrees lol. Nevertheless, I am so grateful I was given another opportunity to fulfill my lifelong dream!
Trust the process they say, but no one ever told me it would take all of this. Let me explain what I’m referring to when I say, all of this. For instance,if God would have told me I would have my clothes packed in a car with nowhere to go at the age of 21, that I would go through several heart breaks before 26, I would move 13 times within 5 years and that when I threw in the towel, he would speak to me and say give it another shot! Believe me, that was only the beginning. If he had told me the one thing I was attempting to process from my early childhood was the thing that gave me strength to fight today, then I would have moved forward in Faith sooner. But this gracious, loving God, gave me another shot, another chance. By this way, this is what His word says, Isaiah 55:8-9 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my way, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” So, this whole time, I felt as if God was preparing me for this moment right here.
The phone calls I received last Fall, changed my life. I knew it would be the biggest leap of faith I had ever taken. Can you imagine working in the corporate world with a nice paycheck rolling in each week, great benefits and being secure then receiving a call that would leave you puzzled. March of 2018, I was certain my track career was coming to an end after not having a coach for months. I was retiring from the sport. I sent out text messages to my family members to tell them of the life change I was making and that was it. Months and months went by and I couldn’t help but ask God why. Why would you allow me to have this desire to run on the next level and not take me to the highest level. Why would I run in two Olympics Trials at a young age and not end my career as an Olympian? Are you keeping me from seeing The Promise Land, did I mess up? OMG this was me every day for about 6 months then I got the call.
“Hey Alexis, where are you? How’s track going?” This person had so many questions and I finally cut this off in id-sentence and said, I’m done. I’m no longer running. He says, “nah, you have too much potential. This is not the end.” With tears in my eyes and a shaky voice, I yelled, yes it is! Then the coach says, “you don’t mean that and I can hear the pain in your voice. If all you need is a coach then let’s work on that.”. Oh and by the way, I called my mom and dad to tell them about the call. They both said, “Alexis, Coaches with that reputation don’t just call people to call them. Are you serious? That means something. Go for it!. You got this.” Finally! I felt a release.
Fast forward to the present. This reputable coach, kept his word. So, I have a coach who is perfect for me, the absolute best!! I drove 15 hours not knowing where I was going to live but found an apartment that same day after arriving to this state. Mind blowing huh?! Then a Facebook memories pops up that says, October 2, 2014, you moved to Texas. Can you guess what date I moved to Texas last year? October 2, 2018!! So, you see that’s just a small insight on all the blessings I have received. As far as training goes, I am stronger than ever. No, seriously, it’s so much easier this time around. It’s like I have this extra push and energy that comes out of no where. I do not get tired so easily and I am truly enjoying the journey. The challenging Monday workouts that leave me on the track, lol half-asleep, the soreness I feel after weights, meal prepping 10 meals every Sunday and a friendly training environment.
As a self-funded athlete, I knew leaving my full-time job with benefits was a challenge. At the same time, how often do you get another second chance to chase your dream? I came into this act of faith, knowing it was not going to be easy but to not pursue a childhood dream of mind because of lack of finances is not something I am willing to bargain with. Want to know how I have been making it so far? Well so do I..The only thing I can say is that it is by the grace of God. This dream, this goal is bigger than me but I am sure with every breath in my body, this is where I am supposed to be at this time. I am on a relentless pursuit in running to the gold with a second chance that came from above.
To my upcoming stars: There will be days when you feel like giving up but just hang on in there. If you are looking for a sign, this is it. Please don't quit! You got this. Remember, "You were created to love and be loved. You were chosen with a purpose.”
I would like to thank all of my supporters who have been so loyal up until this point. I would not be here if it was or for you. If you read this blog and would like to become a supporter, please know, when you support my track career, you are supporting a lifelong dream. I know that one small act of kindness can make a huge difference.
Yours Truly, Alexis Love
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